My brother received great news about his health. His lab results came back cancer free! He is back on the road to "normalcy" again.
While I feel elated about this, I also feel myself hesitant to celebrate too much or too long. I guess it's because I think the cancer is not finished with him and is just giving him a reprieve for now. The fucker always seems to be lurking, waiting till everyone is happy and calm. Then it strikes again. It's like an evil monster that won't go away. Just lets you catch your breath and relax until it makes it's nasty return.
So...........even though I am very happy for the good news, I am afraid to let down my emotional guard. It sounds crazy, but it seems like if I can be cautious and not get too relaxed or happy about his good health, then maybe the monster will stay away. Nuts I know, but that is the crazy kind of bargaining that goes with this disease.
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My little sister found out that she had breast cancer several years ago. She has been cancer free ever since, but we are getting close to that scary seven year mark. Our mother made it exactly seven years and hers resurfaced, so I know how you feel....
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