Stay Away

My brother received great news about his health. His lab results came back cancer free! He is back on the road to "normalcy" again.

While I feel elated about this, I also feel myself hesitant to celebrate too much or too long. I guess it's because I think the cancer is not finished with him and is just giving him a reprieve for now. The fucker always seems to be lurking, waiting till everyone is happy and calm. Then it strikes again. It's like an evil monster that won't go away. Just lets you catch your breath and relax until it makes it's nasty return.

So...........even though I am very happy for the good news, I am afraid to let down my emotional guard. It sounds crazy, but it seems like if I can be cautious and not get too relaxed or happy about his good health, then maybe the monster will stay away. Nuts I know, but that is the crazy kind of bargaining that goes with this disease.

No More Sewing

I finally post about my sewing job, and two days later it changes. I am now in my permanent position - permanent meaning - until I have 6 months of employment and can start bidding on different jobs if I choose.

I am working on the receiving dock. I receive parts with a scanner, unload trucks, and deliver parts. I am currently still in training, and it is kicking my butt! I am not used to being on my feet all day (especially while wearing steel toed shoes) and the past few days I have not had the chance to drive the forklift. Ouch. I come home and collapse...........

I think I'm going to enjoy this job. I like doing a variety of things and not being stuck at a machine all day. I have previous experience in shipping/receiving, so it feels familiar to me. Not too sure about my co-workers, though. I am trying not to judge too quickly, so we'll see.