All Grown Up

GF and I got into a fight today.

My version; she got up cranky and stayed that way and I got sick of it.

Her version; it's all my fault.

Anyway, we got pissy to each other for no good reason. She left for work this afternoon and I was still being very "cool" towards her, even though she was trying to make up.

Now it is 3 hours later and I am feeling shitty about the whole thing. But I don't want to call her and apologize, because of course I have nothing to apologize for. What to do, what to do??

I'm pretty sure I will call her soon, because I am a grown-up and all.......... but it is a struggle to be adult and not a spoiled brat. Sigh.

In sickness & health

I am finally feeling somewhat human again! I have felt like crap for over 2 weeks - even went to the Dr. He gave me medicine that helped, but nothing seemed to be able to make this sore throat, congestion, weezing, etc, go away very quickly. It is still trying to hang around, but life is much more bearable now! Not fun being sick.

We went to the GF's aunt's for the weekend. Spent the night at her house. Her aunt is wonderful and I like her alot, but I would lose it if I had to spend more than a night there every once in awhile. We call her home "a dark cave" - she has an aversion to turning lights on. And her home is dark. It is very depressing, even in the daylight.

"Auntie" took us to dinner, to celebrate Thanksgiving. I think one of the reasons I enjoy her company is because I can feel the love she has for GF. I can't find the words to explain it, but the feeling is there, and it feels good. My GF does not come from a very large family, and her mother is crazy as they come. So Auntie serves as the mother figure in her life.

Good football day today! Browns win, Steelers lose! Doesn't happen that way very often, so I'm enjoying it while it lasts.

On my to-do list today; get gas in my car (it's actually a CRV, but it's easier to write car - sue me I'm lazy) try to breathe without coughing up a lung, and get my hair done.

What I accomplished today; got gas in my car.

Yep, that's it. And it felt like an accomplishment well done.

The breathing without coughing up a lung took the majority of my energy today - and yesterday for that matter. How did I get a cold? I never get colds! This is not nice and I don't like it. Ask my GF how much fun I am when I don't feel good. If we make it through the week without a divorce I will be lucky.

Monday mornings

Mondays are not what they used to be for me, thankfully. I haven't worked for 4 weeks, this is the first time in about 25 years that I'm not working. How odd it feels to not be dreading Monday's. That sounds terrible, but that is how I felt every Sunday night. I like not feeling the dread of Monday, now I would like to find a job and still not dread Monday. I don't know if it's possible.

Getting Started

I did it! I have been trying to get the nerve to start a blog (I would tell you I have been wanting to do a blog for 2 years or so, but that would be too embarrasing to share) and I have finally started!
Now I'm not sure what to write. Maybe getting this started if good enough for now...